Survivor Stories 2013:
Fayrose Gordon (VIDEO)
1. How did you first find out you had cancer?
I had a lump under my arm and I said to the doctor that the lump bothered me. The doctor said it was nothing but he referred me to a gynecologist. The gynecologist said it was nothing. But I wanted it out. He took it out and shows the tumor to my daughter and said, “Look, it’s perfect – it’s not malignant.” I’m in the recovery room, and he comes back in and says, “Fayrose, I’m so embarassed – they did a test and even though it looked normal, it’s malignant.” I had to have another double surgery.
After that, I was part of a research project for blue dye node – and they tested one node. And the way it worked, according to their research, if that one node isn’t malignant, the others are fine. The node tested fine and they said they were 98% sure that I was going to be fine.
Eight years later I felt the area and I didn’t like it. They said the cancer had spread to my lymph nodes, clavicle, all the lymph nodes on my neck and it had also spread to the liver. That taught me a lesson. When I feel something about my body, I have to move with what I feel. I’m attuned to my body. I can put myself into a state of relaxation with my White Light and know what’s happening in different parts of my body. My thinking is so relaxed I can separate fact from fear.
Everybody’s body is different. In 1997 it was malignant and it had kept spreading to 2008. But I didn’t have any symptoms in all that time. I had a very active life.
2. How did you react when you heard the news?
I was angry at myself for going under a thing [the blue dye node research] that wasn’t 100 percent – that I allowed myself to be taken in by percentages. I had more anger than fear. I was angry at the doctor’s reaction initially. I discovered it and the doctor didn’t think it was anything.
3. What course of treatment were you prescribed?
In 1997 double surgery, radiation and tamoxifen – which I took for five years. In 2008 I had surgery and radiation. I took the radiation and yet the cancer kept growing. I haven’t been successful in radiation. Radiation isn’t something I would opt for again – for me, personally.
4. What most surprised you about your treatment?
Having radiation for 5 days a week for 6 weeks and that it was not successful for me – period. There was nothing disappointing about my treatment though. I went though the treatment being told what was going to happen and I accepted the fact. As long as I accept something mentally, I can handle it. Cedars Hospital said they’d never seen any person who went through six weeks of radiation without any side effects at all. I just sailed through and did whatever I needed to.
5. What would your advice be to anyone who’s just received a cancer diagnosis?
Upon hearing a frightening diagnosis of cancer, to avoid any negative feelings, I immediately close my eyes for a minute, to bring the positive energy of my White Light to relax me and enable me to respond to the doctor. We discuss the facts and not the emotions. I accept the fact, then I am more able to respond and have positive hope for the treatment he suggests. Being able to maintain my everyday quality of life is my aim at this point. So I’ve gone through this approach three times with cancer surgeries. Having this positive approach not only helps me not having negative feelings about the drugs or treatment, I’ve also never had a reaction to chemotherapy in five years apart from once. I don’t have reactions to something if I think positively about them working good. People are always amazed I had stage 4 cancer for five years and still have a good quality of life. I realize now that no one can live forever. But putting my positive energy into my body has certainly extended my stay here. I enjoy and appreciate all the loving family and support I receive. That’s one way I face a diagnosis.
6. How long have you been cancer free?
I still have stage 4 breast cancer.
7. What lessons did you learn from the experience?
How to turn negative thoughts and emotions into only positive approaches to any difficult situation in life I may face. It’s taught me to be grateful for having the ability to help cure myself. And keep me mostly free of pain and retain a happy outlook on life. I’ve also become so grateful for all my loving family and their support and their gatherings.
8. If you could send one message to all the Good Enough Mothers out there – what would it be?
Find a way to stay relaxed Buy my book on Amazon. This method has enabled me to approach the difficult things facing me in life. It enables me to accept the diagnoses and better prepare myself to respond and let my own body heal along with any doctor’s medical approach.
Fayrose Gordon is 90 years old who lives in Camarillo, California. She recently published a book, The Great White Light – 60 Second Relief From Stress and Pain (available on Amazon and Lulu), which details how anyone can change the energy around themselves to lead a happy, healthy life. Over the years, Fayrose has astounded doctors with how smoothly she’s responded to treatment – she credits this to practicing the White Light on herself.