I’ve said before that you guys are like therapy to me and because of that, it’s time for me to come clean about something. I haven’t been feeling well lately, working too hard, not getting enough exercise, drinking too much of my favorite libation and not paying attention to my diet. Slowly, my clothes got as tight as my time. So what did I do?  Bought bigger clothes, duh.

But I had a “Come to Jesus” moment today; actually it’s been in the works for a while. I feel like crap. I never have enough energy anymore and more troubling than that is the feeling that my heart is going to beat out of my chest (dear stress: thanks for that).  I’m tired of taking, what I call “strategic pictures” and I just want to feel better, both physically and about myself.

I have approached this sort of halfhearted the last year or so with every excuse in the book; too busy, too tired, too much for everyone else but no more. But you know what one of the biggest problems has been? Accountability. I tried to do it by myself, with no oversight and failed; no one was there to hold my feet to the flames when I didn’t do what I said I was going to do. That changes right now.

I want to share this with you because you are family and I need your support. I was always a thin, athletic person; I never had a weight problem and frankly I’m embarrassed I let myself get here. I am also turning 50 in a few months and running a business and family, along with fluctuating hormones has not helped the cause. But we’re jumping into the driver’s seat right now so here’s my plan:

LOSE WEIGHT: I plan to lose 20 pounds by the end of the year. That is 1 pound a week. I’m not going to publish my starting weight or my end goal, nor am I going to publish pictures I take of myself,  just yet anyway (embarrassed, remember).

HOW I WILL DO IT:  Everyone who’s successfully lost weight knows it takes the two-pronged approach of diet and exercise.

-Diet: I have re-activated my Loseit.com account and will be writing down EVERYTHING I eat and drink. I will weigh myself at the end of each week and publish those results.

-Exercise: Fitting this in is going to be tough but necessary. I walk my darling Olivia but she’s not going to keep me from getting flabby. I’ll add weights and more intense cardio and yes, I will tell you what I do.

I will Instagram and share on my Facebook page, some of my meals and tweet some of the tips and tricks I pick up along the way. By the way,  lunch today was grilled turkey burger, green beans, grapes and tomatoes. Calories? 240.

On December 30th, 2012, I will reveal my weight, what I started at, what it is on that date  and what my plan is for maintenance. One of the things that has become abundantly clear to me is that this is not something I’m going to be able to do in the short-term, only to return to the way I’m eating/living now. This has to be a lifestyle change.

Now, if you would like to join with me, I would love to have you. According to Loseit.com, you’re more successful if you have at least 3 friends with you so if you don’t do it for you, do it for me; I beg of you!

Weigh in #2 comes next Saturday and the goal is to be 1 pound lighter than I am this week.

Wish me luck!

Who wants to play along? If you do, sign up for Loseit.com and start following me!

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