Rene,
This is just a comment. I fully understand what you mean about being a good enough mother. I came across your book use to watch you in the am and I think you and I think a lot alike. I started out trying to be perfect, that did not last long though. I live with lightning, rain and wind. Three boys whom drive me alsmost nuts on a daily basis. I ran outside to get away from them for a few minutes and not even the screams from inside the house could get lure me back inside!!! Until I got my few minutes alone!!!! I can not have a closet to hide in as you suggest, so I am going to plant some nice flowers by a bench I have and hide out there! One of my kids said to the other one as I hid outside..come on she's still writing and they ran off to find more trouble. I was writing in my journal about them! I appreciate your thoughts and understand what you mean, unlike others who assume you are mothering half-way. Lord knows, you can only do so much. Some days, I do not even feel like doing. I am waiting for my storm to pass or rather waiting fro them to grow up!!!