I called to inquire of biopsy results. The on-call MD returned my call with this news: “They didn’t tell you? Yea, there’s cancer in that thing!”
When I heard the news, utter shock is the word. Like an outer-body experience not knowing enough to go or stay. I thought about what the outcome may be? Life and death were in war over me and I found fear.
They tried to rush an emergency surgery, but I wouldn’t let them. Because I’ve worked in medical settings, I knew better to read everything I could find. After speaking with over 70 cancer hearing hearts, here’s my treatment: A radical mastectomy with reconstructive surgery, chemotherapy, radiation, blood transfusions, daily booster shots, double port catheter, unemployment, foreclosure, bankruptcy, and the spiral continued. I left cancer sad and upset.
What surprised me more than my treatment was that it (the treatment) didn’t kill me faster than just going through the cancer? What if I died? Who would care for my young children? When I could, I wrote poetry everyday.
Memoirs in Pink: A Breast Cancer Journey through Song is Christian in theme – giving ALL Glory to God! If you like Gospel or Christian music, you will love it. Proceeds benefit cancer patients experiencing financial hardship.
My advice for what I’ve coined, “cancer hearing hearts,” is to breath 1st. That very first nerve can over-take you, so breath. Then, after you’ve had a moment – go somewhere safe and be alone. If you are the kind of person who must tell someone, or something bad might happen (smile), choose a family member from whom you have always received love. They will hug you through the first moments. God will carry you from there … I promise!
I’ve been cancer free for over 10 years. Praise God!
I’ve always known to cherish every day and seize opportunity. However, cancer taught me to honor every breath – for without the next one … I’m dead.
My one message to all the Good Enough Mothers out there would be to watch my video, and then like, share, comment, repeat: Memoirs in Pink: a Breast Cancer Journey through Song:
Patrina has earned a Bachelor’s Degree in Human Development 9Syracuse University, NY) and earned a Masters Degree in Social Work (Springfield College, MA). Ms. Reddick has been featured in numerous magazines, radio shows, and as speaker.